Day 38: The Walk

Inhale – breathe

A feeling lies waiting inside,

now relentlessly

begging to appear

NO, from it, I will hide.

Exhale – fear

This feeling I swallow,

hard like ore;

it glides down my belly,

drowning empty space

I am hollowed.

Inhale – step

Oh, God, please rid said space

of guilt and fury,

suffocate its doom

pray with Him it is buried.

Exhale – approach

This understanding you fight,

recognize in a moment;

for your shaking concern

disappears in the broken.

Why do you fear

an emotion of such?

Because hours ago

it encountered

evil’s lying touch?

Inhale – taste

I now recognize

His wanting simplicity –

is it the smell, sad song,

or found in their word’s toxicity?

This taste on my tongue

no longer burns with negativity,

I now find comfort in His vulnerability.

Exhale – see

Before you begin your day:

This poem symbolizes the journey. Yes, it is the path we walk every time we savor the Mass. And, to savor means to taste and enjoy completely. Which is exactly my reasoning for presenting the Blessed Body and Blood backward? Because that is what it must have been like for the Apostles. In the breaking of the bread before Jesus's death, they did not grasp reality - they could not have understood. I put myself there; it would have been impossible to fathom the next day! No, it would not be until I saw His precious blood gush forth. Then reality would have hit me as hard as the blows that fell upon our Blessed Lord.

This reality would not have painted a clear picture by any means. The words that come to my mind as I enter the scene are: "Do this in remembrance of me." And this is where I sometimes stand in the Communion line. I have no understanding of what the Lord wants from me - no perceived answer to my prayer - no knowledge of His blessed why. All I can do is: Do in remembrance of Him.

The Apostles are witnessing from a distance. The moment His blood pours forth, they begin a journey toward His cross. They begin to understand. This is the walk! As the bread rests upon your tongue, are you there? Is the love of Christ palatable? Do you accept this idea of complete love? Are you savoring each step that brings you closer to the comfort found in His vulnerability?

Let us walk. Put yourself in the line. Your steps travel closer to completeness. Allow the taste within to secure whatever is open. Wherever vulnerability lingers, let His Body seal yours with wholeness.

Step 1: Inhale – breathe

Let your breath accept any feelings waiting inside. Let us pray:

Lord, as need relentlessly begs to appear,

help me to face it, shouting NO,

from you, I will not hide.

Step 2: Exhale – fear

Allow the coming taste to accompany the feeling as you swallow. Let us pray:

Lord, may it fall like ore,

gliding down my belly;

drown any empty space

permeate where I am hollowed.

Step 3: Inhale – step

As you step forward, open your hands. Relinquish their grip. Let us pray:

Oh, God, please rid opened space

of sorrow, guilt and fury,

rid me of its loom.

With this taste, it is buried.

Step 4: Exhale – approach

You are next, as you wait, listen to Him pray:

This understanding you fight,

recognize in a moment;

for your shaking concern

disappears in the broken.

Why do you fear

an emotion of such?

Because it encountered

a sinful touch?

Step 5: Inhale – taste

You are here, taste and...

Lord, help me recognize

His peaceful simplicity –

will it be the smell, accompanying song,

or found in offering's humility?

This taste on my tongue

does not burn with negativity,

for I swallow comfort in His vulnerability.

Exhale – see

During your day:

"Father, they are your gift to me.

I wish that where I am

they also may be with me,

that they may see my glory that you gave me,

because you loved me before the foundation of the world."

(John 17: 24)

Read Mark 14: 22-26; Luke 22: 19; 1 Corinthians 11: 23-26; John 17 (The Prayer of Jesus)

Throughout your day:

INHALE: I hunger.

EXHALE: You feed.

(repeat as many times as needed)

Before you end your day:

Choose any of the prayers above to recite. Where are you on the walk toward the Cross at this moment?

Now choose any line(s) from the Lord's prayer above or from The Prayer of Jesus in John, Chapter 17. This is the prayer said for His disciples then and for all future disciples of Christ - YOU.


Goodnight; sleep well; know you are blessed.


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